Christ is My Lifeline

(This is a follow up to my previous post titled:  “A Love Like That of Christ’s”) 

As I listened to the song, “Surely We Can Change”, multiple times, I began to feel strengthened to endure.  After all, I could not argue with the Lord about how true love, the love He gives and calls me to, has no conditions.  After I stopped replaying the song on my iPod, one of the following songs which began to play was “Lifeline” from a Mandisa CD.  Oh, this one was also so very appropriate for the moment!

With “Surely We Can Change”, I felt the Lord’s loving instruction.  With “Lifeline”, I felt His encouragement and His reminder that He is my All in all!  His love is constant, unwavering, and unfailing.  Even when the ones we love do not return our love, He has more than enough love to give us and pour over us. 

A Love Like That of Christ’s

Yesterday, I began my day with a very heavy and sorrowful heart.  Once again, it all had to do with the profound ache of relationships.  I am truly having a difficult time dealing with my intense feelings of emotional pain regarding particular relationships.  There is a desperate desire within me for my relationships to be full of joy, grace, peace, and love.  

I have repeatedly asked God the same questions over and over: “Why does it have to be this way?  How long must it be this way?  I’m hoping it will be different in the future.  Will my hope materialize?  Is that day near or far?  Why must it hurt so deeply and continuously?  Why can’t I just release the situation, trust You are working in it, and not let it hurt me so much?  What am I doing wrong?  Am I taking things too personal?  What am I seeing wrong? What can I do to help correct what’s wrong?  How do I change this person’s perception of me and my motives?  How do I impart the truth?”